Addictions

"As natural as it is for sentient being to avoid pain, sometimes going through pain is the only way to lift the pain, to grow and develop, or quite simply to reject the powers of pain to govern our entire life. The only way to break the stranglehold of an addiction is to feel the pain that it is a defense against, the pain that we are already feeling."

~ James Hollis from Why Good People Do Bad Things

Back to School...

Its amazing the ways that God can direct us and mold us. This summer has definitely been interesting and full of ups and downs. We went through so many different ideas of where we should go, live, be and all the while wondering what exactly God has in store. I think it was worse on me. I went from having a job right out of school to being let go because I need some time off to finish a class in order to graduate (they decided it would be better to let me go then to give me the two weeks off...) After finishing my class the end of July, I began earnestly seeking a job - but nothing! I was astonished at the amount of resumes I sent out and the lack of response I was receiving. And I slowly grew disheartened that all the jobs I would really love to work at required more schooling then what I currently have. At some point during this time a seed was planned when I ended up getting an email from Providence Seminary letting me know that I still needed to register for classes! Oops I forgot to let them know I decided to not take my Masters...hmm... Guess I figured I had better email and let them know I am not coming.

Two weeks later on Friday, Rory said something to the extent of "why not just do your Masters?" I was shocked! He would be willing to put on hold some of our dreams and let me complete school? I definitely liked the idea! I got on the phone on and decided to figure out if I still had a spot at the school. Monday morning the school let me know that yes I had a spot. The rest is history! I have been busy figuring out where to live, what classes to take, school supply shopping, and getting a million other things figured out.

The weirdest part of the whole situation is how smoothly everything has gone so far. Its like I groan at the idea of having to figure out one more thing about it all (like renting or buying a place, how to pay for classes, etc, etc, etc!) but when I go to do it - it becomes as easy as one, two, three! It really attests to the idea that God does know the plans He has for us. And even though I may have deviated four months ago from the original plan of doing more school, He didn't give up and continued on with the plan bringing me back around at just the right time...

....Definitely makes me excited for not only the next three years, but what is going to happen beyond that!